I’ve never broken a bone. Well, that’s not true. When I was 12 I did break my finger during a volleyball game at a family party but, that hardly counts. I have however had my heart broken numerous times which I think is just as bad as a broken bone…sometimes worse. I remember the first time it happened. I was 16 and just broke up with my first boyfriend. I remember sobbing to my mom with my hand over my heart, words coming out in breathy heaves, “It hurts.”
And it does hurt. When people write in books that they felt as if someone was squeezing their chest- that is such an accurate depiction. It’s like someone cracked open your sternum, stuck their hand in there, grabbed your heart and squeezed. Sometimes it even feels like they’ve ripped it full out, leaving a curtain of dangling arteries and veins behind. Me, falling to the floor, slowly bleeding out. You can feel the life drain from you when it happens. Leaving you a withered shell, a walking husk.
And unlike a broken bone, there is no set time limit for it to heal. It could be weeks. It could be months. It could be years. You may think it’s healed and then one thing happens and sets you back, ripping open those fragile fibers all over again. The healing process once again starting from square one. A slow and steady repair. And then one day you wake up, and your chest feels normal, light even. And you know, you just know that it’s over. Your heart weathered the pain. It stitched up it’s own tears, no doctor involved, no cast needed. Once again full and beating hard. Ready for the next blow to come it’s way. Bracing itself for the next slash. Always ready to pick up the pieces and repair itself once again.
K.J Stafford 
Lol I just wrote about the episode of chest tightness I had last week, I described it like someone had their hands around my heart and was squeezing. But more a medical concern than an emotional one…I never considered a broken heart lol
That is such a scary feeling! I’m happy you’re feeling better! I’ve always found it amazing how much our emotional affects our physical – its a crazy phenomenon which is why mental health should be just as much of a priority as physical health! Thank you so much for reading and commenting ❤
A very accurate portrayal. Once you’ve experienced it you never forget.
It really does stay with you forever ❤
That is so true about broken hearts, K.J. They mend to break again.
And I broke my finger trying to do a headstand in gym class in the sixth grade, lol.
Yes ❤
Haha that is an epic way to break it. Ironically, I broke another finger yesterday when my dog yanked too hard on the leash. Which I found so funny after I had just posted this the other day haha