6 Months

It's been 6 months since I last saw you
And what’s funny is I had no idea that last time
was going to be the last time
Everything was so normal
We chatted, we laughed and then parted ways
As if we’d see each other again tomorrow

And then that text came through
The first of a few that ripped my heart in two
I wouldn’t be seeing you tomorrow
I wouldn’t be seeing you anymore at all

You had a plan
You had to do what was best for you
And evidently what was best for you was absolutely not me
I’ve come to accept that

And just so you know, you were not what was best for me either
I know that now. 
Even though some days I still wake up with my heart hurting
like someone has it in their fist
squeezing like an orange 
The pain just as vivid as it was 6 months ago 

I deserve more than what you were ever able to offer
more than what you ever will be able to offer. 
So, thank you. 
Thank you so much for setting me free 
Releasing me from that cage
I unknowingly trapped myself in

Thank you for letting me go. 
Cause I know if you hadn’t, I would have continued to hold on, 
stuck behind bars with clipped wings. 
Forever.