I saw you yesterdayfor the first time in a long timeI thought by nowI would be able to walk by, look you in your golden eyesand feel fineInstead, my body reactsas if it’s in its final momentsas if you’re the hunterand I am the fleeing rabbitMy heart raps at my sternuma rhythmic, forceful poundingshuttering my... Continue Reading →
In honor of my favorite little man's second birthday! I am so honored to be your Auntie ❤
It's been 6 months since I last saw youAnd what’s funny is I had no idea that last timewas going to be the last timeEverything was so normalWe chatted, we laughed and then parted waysAs if we’d see each other again tomorrowAnd then that text came throughThe first of a few that ripped my heart... Continue Reading →
Creativity is fuelkindling for the fireWriteDrawDanceSingdo what ignites youallow your sparks to flyshare it with the worldlet them feel your blazean inferno running free
Life lately feels like a growing list of “oh wells” The car broke again- oh wellRejected from the 20th job this week- oh wellDog shit on the floor again- oh well Can’t nail down a relationship to save my life- oh wellNeighbors woke me up at 430am for the 17th day in a row- oh... Continue Reading →
Sometimes we just need a lazy, rainy day to lay on thecouchTV blaring in the backgroundraindrops clinging to windowscreating bubbled artwork across glass canvasesPelting downrhythmic drippingheart beat aligningwaves of calmfloating upheavy limbsDormant for a daywhile it is allwashed awayUntil the sundecides to conquer the cloudsonce again
“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental... Continue Reading →
I noticed my plants that had been looking quite frail and lackluster as of late have slowly been making their comeback. And really, the same seemed to be true for me- debilitated and pale from the overcast and gloom, I also seemed to be slowly rising from the dark hole that winter pushed me into....
I still think of you...much less than I used to[Thank god]But, you still wiggle your wayinto the folds of my brain sometimesa parasitic afflictionacting upthengoing dormant againBut, thereliving quietly in the back of my mindworming your way to the frontat the most inconvenient of timesforcing me into the task of banishing youonce again...
A long time ago, my therapist told me:The goal is actually not to be happy, it is to be contenthappiness dwells on the opposite end of the feelings spectrumLike sadness and anger, it is intenseyet fleetingContentment however, lies more in the middle more achievable for long periodsI thought about this for awhileit baffled meAll of... Continue Reading →
K.J Stafford 